Fear & Failure
Thursday, August 28th, 2008So many times I am afraid to face my inner failures. And yet, until I do, I constantly live in fear of who I “really am” and am unable to accept myself and the love of others.
Hello, Good-Bye
Tuesday, August 26th, 2008Today’s was Madeline’s first day of grade one. After talking to her bus driver yesterday, we decided to just have Madeline take the bus home after school. Her pick up time in the morning was 50 minutes before the first bell, and the school is less than a 5 minute drive from our house. Since [...]
More Dreams
Monday, August 25th, 2008Right before I woke up this morning, I had another dream about — what else?– Granny. (Although she wasn’t directly in this dream, though she was in another one in the night.) And this one freaked me out so much, I had to get Marc to hold me afterward!
In the dream I was at my [...]
I’m so tricky…
Saturday, August 23rd, 2008This morning the kids got up earlier than they usually do — way too early for a Saturday morning. I prolonged getting out of bed as long as I could, but since I’d promised to let Marc sleep in, I was out of bed and herding the children to the basement before 7:30am. (Which I [...]
You go out and play now…
Wednesday, August 20th, 2008Just came down to check email before bed. Talena posted the video and lyrics for this song by Chris Rice. (You should really go and listen to the song.)
That song was playing in the background as I flipped through the pictures of the kids and Marc and I that I just uploaded to Facebook. And [...]
Changes
Wednesday, August 20th, 2008My grandpa had his 91st birthday in January. After granny died, he was more than willing to take up my mom and dad’s offer to move into their place. So, even though granny’s funeral was just last week, the whole process of moving has begun. My uncle and my mom are working in grandpa’s basement this [...]
Vacation Pictures
Tuesday, August 19th, 2008Marc has now posted Day 4 of our vacation. That was the day of the driving. We thought the day before was the day of driving. When we pulled into Coronach in the evening of Day 3, we sat on the empty side of the restaurant so as not to disturb everyone else’s supper. But [...]
Past Perspectives
Tuesday, August 19th, 2008Jyl came over Sunday night. We haven’t hung out in a long time. In fact, I’ve hardly hung out with anyone lately. The day we came back from our vacation, Marc and I were trying to think, “who are our friends?” It just seemed like there have been lots of changes going on around us [...]
Help me!!! (What will the neighbours say?)
Friday, August 15th, 2008Wow. Today was another day. At least Marc will be home in 10 minutes. Let’s just say that this morning’s trip to get Madeline some school clothes and supplies and some milk was not fun. (You can ask Bonnie. I was in tears by the time I saw her — and that was only at [...]
A Week of Grief
Thursday, August 14th, 2008As of today, all of the family has gone home. Since the day after we got back from our vacation (almost 3 weeks ago), we’ve had steady family visiting– between 15 to 40+ at the dinner table at my parents’ house every night. I’m exhausted. And this grief business? I don’t think it gets easier [...]