I’m not feeling lost, but I know that normally I would feel lost right about now. I’ve only been alluding to things on the blog lately, and everything is still uncertain, but I imagine that we will be moving this summer. And that’s really all I know. The fact that I’m not freaking out and panicking about the how and where of it all is pretty huge for me. Instead, I’m tackling every day as it comes. And some days are easier than others. But, still, every day is manageable.
I’m going through the rooms of the house (and Lauralea was right, it is more of a “room a week” kind of job) trying to sort through the things we want to keep. And it really does feel like I just did this two years ago, because we did just move two years. But now we’re in a different phase of our lives. We’re likely done having kids, and even if we aren’t, I’m not going to bring with us the piles and piles of baby things “just in case”. So there is just a lot of stuff to get rid of.
My mom came and took a huge garbage bag of clothes and shoes for my little cousin the other day. And it was just so terribly hard to let that bag of clothes go. They were good clothes. There were a lot of clothes. And even at $0.50 a piece, which is nothing really, at a garage sale, there is still money to be made off of those things.
Now, normally I’m a pretty generous person (at least with some things), but you’ve got to understand the sheer volume of clothes and baby things we have. It’s really quite sickening. And I’m torn. I’m torn between holding on to these things for the next month or two until we can have a garage sale or just taking them to a woman’s shelter or some place where people really need those kinds of things. Is the work of a garage sale worth the couple hundred dollars you get from it? I want things cleared out now. I don’t want to look at it anymore. It stresses me out. Marc mentioned to me that if I could get a tax receipt for the stuff, I would have no problem giving it away. But isn’t that horrible? Why can’t I just give this stuff freely, without looking for anything in return?
I think it’s because there is just so much of it. And, at least with Luke’s stuff, it’s only gone through one kid, and one kid who went from newborn to size 18month clothes in the first four months of his life! And part of it is also that it means we’re moving out of the baby stage and that is always sad. But part of it is also about the money, because the money has been spent on these things and, just like that, we don’t need them — if we ever did in the first place! Honestly, I’d like the kids to move with one box of toys each, because they don’t need as much as they have, and I only think they need it because I’m so sick about how much all of their things have cost.
So maybe it would be a good thing for me to just accept the impermanence of these things in our life and send them off to people in town who really need them, instead of selling them cheaply and have them be added to the piles of stuff other people like us already have.
Thoughts? Or, if I’m being honest, “HELP!!!!”